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Thursday, 21 May 2009
Visits To The Flea Circus - by Nick Jackson

 

Visits To The Flea Circus

by Nick Jackson

Elastic Press 2005

Another 'real-time' book review by DF Lewis. Previous 'real-time' reviews are linked from HERE.

Early in 2005, I wrote: "Just wanted to say that 'Visits To The Flea Circus' is superb. For me, the stories are wonderfully in the tradition of VS Pritchett, AE Coppard, HE Bates... and more. All carrying a special something which stays in the mind." - on the message board HERE

Having recently become practised in the art of discovering leit-motifs and gestalts through real-time reviewing, I intend to re-read this book and here give it the DFL treatment story by story - to see if it lives up to my memory of it!  (15 May 09)

 

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The Brick Pits

I know exactly the era in the UK this takes place – 1961.  How do I know? The pop music references. I personally remember the ‘genius loci’ of that era. And this story conveys it perfectly.  I used to collect sticklebacks in jamjars.  Here the boy captures newts at the Brick Pits, newts with an unnatural aura of amphibian mobility that perhaps magically empowers the ‘genius loci’ even beyond what has already been artfully captured by the words.  And there are (I infer) the working-class people, the spiv uncle and his girl friend – and the spiv's friend called Stanley.  Absolutely perfect. An ironic alembic.  Ending with a sense of knowing that we have just entered a writer’s world that will continue to make us surely shudder as well as smile.  Walking back to happiness, woopah oh yeah yeah.

 

“...a polka-dot dress with straps that came over the shoulder and fastened at the front with large black buttons like glistening eyes and I wondered if they undid or were just for show.”  (16 May 09)

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The Black House

We are in Norfolk (early sixties again?). Birthday Club on black and white Anglia TV, if so. The “Country Matters” depiction from Granada TV, if the seventies. A.E. Coppard. The cruelty of nature, the even greater cruelty of children against nature and against each other. More newts trapped in jamjars, no doubt. Chinese burns. Jeering. Daring. The Black House is no doubt one such dare to enter. Iconoclasm in the country church.  Lash out at misery; the gauche boy in the story has a slow brain with only impulses to solve his problems. The main boy protagonist, meanwhile, follows his own cute grapplings with nature. A wonderful evocation of all these things with a rich yet paradoxically economical style of language (a Nick Jackson hallmark, I think).  The Black House looms subtly large as does our pity for those with only impulses and no finer thoughts. But I can’t tell a shrew from a vole... 

“The windows were blind, milky with cataracts formed by fine-spun cobwebs, for the Black House was empty.” (16 May 09 - 4 hours later)

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On The Beach 

Having started the engine and moving up the gears in the previous stories, Jackson now evidently has the confidence to go into overdrive. A very strong description of a vast bay (and a wreck) and the receding and later returning tides, the ribbed surface I remember so well from such scenarios. Again the loner gauche child, a girl with down-to-the-boots impulses and the mindless care from her simple house-proud mother and the contempt from her less simple (but still impulsive) and self-unknowingly cruel cousins. Multifarious sealife curded and abrim with some of the ‘magic’ power of now unseen amphibians hinted at in an earlier story. Jackson now carries the paradox of his style (rich yet economical) to the subject-matter (simple yet wriggling with implications).

 “On the outside she scooped out a moat and inside she arranged concentric circles of scallop and cockleshells decorated with tiny pieces of crimson weed.” (17 May 09) 

High Cliff, Cool Sea 

A relatively brief story where we are now transported evocatively beyond UK to a hot foreign coast (Spanish?) and a gullible English traveller who meets a stranger. We sense the stranger is not being straightforward with his friendship.  Ulterior motives.  The stories so far have a sense of ulterior motive themselves, leaving conclusions unclinched ... hanging in the air. And here we have another cliff-hanger (in that sense rather the suspense sense) – a fishing-line for meanings.  We wonder if the stranger’s presumably incriminating wine stains (as perceived by the protagonist) are indeed wine stains. Or salty juices from the sea-life (lizardy and otherwise) that is again touched on in this story ... evidence of more amphibians nuzzling beyond the margins of the book?  Whether that is the case or not, this story gains reality from its inconclusivity and an element of ah-well-shrugging truth from our impression of a half-serious laid-back stranger who really hasn’t got the get-up-and-go to be as villainous as we expected.

 “Then with an arrogant flick of the tail and a rasping of claws on rock they would disappear into a crevice and emerge yards away to continue lolling.” (17 May 09 - 6 hours later)

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Alas, Lonely Heart

This is a genuine classic worthy of any anthology anywhere.  And it takes on even more power from the context of the book so far.  A description of a blind date in the National Gallery (describing the female half as protagonist of the meeting), with references to being on a diving-board above ‘a dark pool of possibilities’ and the eating of an olive (like a lizard?) and inhaling tea through nostrils and the memory of a tea-towel depicting wild-life left on a draining-board and looking out of a green pool in Monet and a painting of a frog on a table like a ‘turd’ and, above all, a faulty tap.  You need to read the story to see how all these images (and others) and the meeting between two lonely hearts are so perfectly yet precariously balanced. Unforgettable.  Although I had forgotten the full power of my earlier reading of this story, it came back to me as I re-read it today, however.

"The foyer was full of fluttering syllables and stray phrases, the ebb and flow of strangers communicating in the hoarse museum whisper that shuffled through the galleries and filled the archways.” (18 May 09)

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The Legend of Mr Fox

 A very effective re-telling of a legend in a fairy-tale form like Red Riding Hood – that will honestly haunt you forever. It has me. Except ‘forever’ could never be tested till now?

I loved the startling viewpoint of jumped-upon conclusion at the very start. And a corpse is amphibious, the ending hints weirly ... in pursuance of a hand’s discretion.

As before, strangers can appear friendly one moment, not the next, especially to gauche protagonists.

 “My name sounded strangely on his lips, almost as if he had taken it and reshaped it for some secret purpose of his own.” (18 May 09 - 3 hours later)

The Shawl 

Here the main protagonist (Beano by name) is the stranger himself, one who proves cynical and untrustworthy towards a gauche dutiful individual whose name is Ana (cf. Aefa in the previous story).  And one is invited to speculate upon this girl's wedding to someone else as sent to Beano in a months-old newspaper cutting and upon the eventual nature of the magnified dots or pixels of newsprint that form her “carnival grin”.  The Beano was a comic magazine I was brought up on as a small child in the Fifties, full of characters of anthropomorphised animals (as I originally thought Mr Fox too be), all no doubt with carnival grins.  The mention of this comic is as prestidigitative as the shawl itself, the only apparent importance of which is that it actually became the story’s title.  I love stories that set meaningful traps with falsely laid symbols! And this is a lovely inscrutable tale that I think I have grasped each time that it slips out again like a wild frog.  But, to be fair, I think that, with this story, we have now left the realm of amphibians and entered that of fleas?

“At night he tossed and moaned in his bed like a great black dog tormented by fleas.” (18 May 09 - another 4 hours later)

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Little Gods

Quickly judging by the contents list, this is the longest story in the book by a long way.  I am not strong on history, but it seems to be a historic setting in Spain / Portugal / Mexico in the time of Cortés.  It is very powerful – depicting a man’s memories of his life (his family, his travels) in front of a Priest and an old needle-clicking Nurse, concluding with his conviction of war crimes, seen by him in hindsight as necessary evils but tinged by a greed for gold. (Cf ‘Nostromo’ and silver). With poignant eventuality, he finds gold in sunlight. 

 

Mixed judgements and mixed motives, complexly dealt with in a deceptively simple way for matters to be weighed in each reader’s balance of justice.  But it is not a ‘roman à clef’; it is beautiful fiction for fiction’s sake - but I may have misinterpreted some of its goals. Good fiction can work at several levels, as this does. It needs a large reading circle, perhaps, to enter all its levels at once. One reader or reviewer can’t do it. All expressed in Jackson’s hallmark style.  Plus startling images (eg. sucking an old woman’s nipple) ... and visions such as that of the Virgin Mary all crowd in on me as if many religions swarm to corner me with demands for attention... And one who is not religious like me, it’s most frightening!

 

It is as if God (comprising various gods and anthropomorphised totems and talismans and the act of sin-eating) is the Stranger and mankind is the Gauche Individual as paralleled by the previous context of the book.

 

Much rain. Movement like fleas. Viscidity. Much perceptiveness regarding the human condition.

 

“The endless rain seeped into the seams of his imagination.”

 

“The priest was eating a pomegranate with a sharp knife. He picked out the glutinous seeds which glistened like disembodied fish eyes and scooped them into his mouth.”

 

"It was the frenetic swarming of thousands of people for the moment oblivious to the presence of a hostile army.”

 

“Like a line of insects they journeyed across the vast landscape...”

“Perhaps this was how one died, he thought: piecemeal – losing memories, feelings, thoughts, until one day the capacity to act was no longer there.” (19 May 09)

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Visits to the Flea Circus

This story is central eponymously as well as half-way positionally – and, unless I’m mistaken, central thematically, judging by the leit-motifs it captures from the first half of the book and deploys for its own use.  It is, more importantly, also a very good story, crammed with intriguingly ‘laid’ symbols, false and real.  I will leave you to differentiate the false from the real, when you read it – as read it you must.  Nick Jackson, I have reminded myself, by this re-reading of the book so far, is a greatly underrated author. This story tells of a sort of arranged marriage in Mexico in 1899 between a young Mexican girl and an American - with a death (an accident or dive?) as a premature spoiler-climax at the story’s start, a scorpion, plankton, a lizard, a jellyfish, microscopic ticks on a bird’s wing, and a 'circus' of “flea-sized creatures” one of which wields an erection (I infer), a zoo, a Mr Eagle (Cf. Mr Fox), a sudden unexpected wedding by a widow in this case (cf: the stories concerning Ana and Aefa and the surprise marriages therein) ... apparent motivelessness - and random shards of synchronised truth and fiction including an-eye-for-an-eye death and birth.  It is not so much Magic Realism as Magic Fiction.  The style is precise needlepoint, an embroidery of images – literally so, within the plot, too. Meanwhile, the words themselves move around in your memory like the ‘flea-creatures’. You do feel, however, as if the author has given you all the tools to be the story’s God.  You make the decisions of meaning for the best outcome to suit you. SPOILER: But you, as gauche reader (an innocent abroad in the story), like me, will always choose the outcome that the story’s author-stranger (‘the intentional fallacy’ demands the ‘stranger’ bit) wanted from the start. You only think you have control.  It is an arranged story of author and reader, as well as an arranged marriage. (19 May 09 - 4 hours later)

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Interior with Green Glass 

“She felt a sensation close to shame relieving herself into that elegant porcelain bowl that was so like a little pool...”

 Truly exquisite replay of the ‘Alas, Lonely Heart’ scenario.  I am sucked along the channels of this literature like a shoal of silver-fish, myself. Each bit of me a discrete entity. It’s that easy – that difficult – to imagine.

But who, in this OCD scenario, is gauche, who not? The further we delve into this book, the less easy that question becomes, and more difficult to know which side, which sex, which impulse, which jumped conclusion, reflects you, as the reader, best. The setting is over-clean, but we imagine tinier and tinier mites unseen. [Last night lying awake, when dwelling on this book, I thought of A.S. Byatt’s work – and if that comparison is to be made, then very few greater compliments, in my book, can be given.]

 “His penis was lithe and reminded her of an albino cave amphibian with bluish gills...” (20 May 09)

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Subsidence

A simple tale of a gauche one’s revenge. A piece with its own in-built implosion which takes the breath away as an unpretentiously obvious symbol.  It is a meticulously told ‘marital’ of simple people. An old-fashioned DIY tinkerer of impulsive self-belief and his non-assertive wife ... until the ground literally caves in.  She remains non-decisive, but by so remaining makes the biggest decision of her life.  As in ‘Little Gods’, a necessary evil. Tinkerings of innocent cruelty that started in childhood (cf. ‘The Black House’) extends into adulthood... 

The concept of the garden that is subsumed makes me think, in the context of the whole book so far, of all the creatures small and smaller that live in its holistic living shape as a separable entity and within its several layers now misaligned by some shifting of far-off tectonic plates, lending a new precarious depth to an otherwise inferentially straightforward story.

 “The drawer smelt of ancient lipstick, sickly sweet, an old woman’s smell.” (20 May 09 - 2 hours later)

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Crimson Cliff

Echoing the ‘accident or dive’ in the story entitled ‘Visits to the Flea Circus’, here we have a story that is often a philosophically contrived ‘roman à clef’ (like the journal itself of one of the characters!), a story with “thematic flaws” of attempted 'flight or fall' upon thermals, entropy,  personal subsidence, Ligottian ‘Pessimism’, Natural Selection and being subsumed by the living Sun with its tongue flicking you from the sky ... considerations stemming from the non-symbiotic relationship of a man and a woman who gauchely encounter each other from time to time. We are left at the end with the knowledge that there may be patterns to our behaviour beyond empiricism.  Perhaps fiction can be the only truth when logic or science eventually fails.

 “The air was filled with their shrill whistling. A language of urgent guttural shrieks to find a mate, to locate a nest site, to indicate the abundance of insects.” (21 May 09)

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The Kiss

Another gauche innocent abroad, due to hitch-hike through America to Mexico after getting off the plane at Kennedy Airport; Joe first sees on the subway: “a painted juggler threw flaming knives.”  That seems a telling symbiosis with the loose end of the story...Plus someone who mimics passers-by and a series of drivers picking him up, including a plug-ugly who forces a subsuming kiss.... Also “...a man , as slim and brown as a lizard” and a “flame wavered  in its little glass globe like a blue and yellow fish swimming nose down.”

 

My review of this story meets its own loose end, too ... other than to report the story's effectively and neatly nested within the book’s ever-growing context. (21 May 09 - 2 hours later)

 

Sea Monsters

 Some stories work and one never knows why. ‘Sea Monsters’ is one such. It is inextricably hilarious and poignant.  I am a sucker for stories with seaside type entertainment and atmosphere (I live among a similar ambiance myself).  Here make-up and the act itself of thinking/imagining are both props.  Props do make theatricality more believable.  And here we have theatricality within a proscenium arch literally and within the story’s own proscenium arch of marginalised reality and within a proscenium arch of open air, autumnalising trees, and the sea with metaphor/props magicking forth as monsters.  A turn of a leaf and a thousand destinies decided. How many more motes are turning, even as I write this? This story has an Aickman-like, Reggie-Oliveresque scenario – and a stage character who takes us with him. A story that is wonderful alone, and even more wonderful perhaps because of the book’s surrounding setting of other stories.  I only choose books to buy and then review that I somehow know I will instinctively think this good. That is why all my real-time reviews have my positive enthusiasm as a conscientious reviewer in common. My instinct is rarely wrong about what I personally am going to find this good.

“He watched a child that stood alone at the water’s edge. It seemed suddenly to realise its isolation and sat in the sand like a frog, legs bending up at its sides.” (22 May 09)

 

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Self-Portrait

 “Ah the whirling crocodiles! The whirling woman, slim as a viper in that red dress.”

 

I forgot to mention above that ‘Subsidence’ ends with a faulty tap to match that of ‘Alas, Lonely Hearts’. Music, too, can have faulty taps and parallels with modern existences, as our aging protagonist ventures out from the cocoon of art (and from his seedy living conditions) into the different sort of seediness: the fast life of the streets. This story is the cross-subsidence of music and life as meticulously adumbrated by a composer of meagre personality. Another one of those gauche-crashes for rubber-necking readers like us.  Indeed the music is everything: the teasing and worrying out of its insect-seeds and notes towards a texture to carry many of the anthropomorphised metaphor-creatures, indeed the whole book’s menagerie of amphibians, reptiles and insects. And reminds me of my own process of real-time reviewing itself, fastidiously picking at constructs to wring out leit-motifs and gestalt from the music of words and plot.

“The dance gave them the appearance of gigantic insects, coupling and uncoupling.” (22 May 09 - 3 hours later)

 

 

Egg Thief

 Another ‘surprise’ marriage at the end to a “rich fockin’ lawyer” as come-uppance for a thief called Phoebus (the sun in 'Crimson Cliff’?) who – in this story’s sensory vision of a country such as Mexico – clumsily catches not swine ‘flu but a spoiler tumour from this sentence: “In the folds of the veil there is a sensation of something blind and feeble, but alive, against the dead shrouded corpse.”

 

When hearing the “throbbing courtship of frogs” or during the “slow, insect-clicking, afternoon heat”, I sometimes feel that I am a thief as I creep about all these stories filching what gems I can find  by picking each word-lock with “a nauseous pleasure in the click of the defeated mechanism”!

 

A vibrant sweating atmosphere of foodstuffs and festivals - and crimes not of but for passion.  Magnífico!

 

“In the last inch of water there is a squirming of tiny fish and amphibians, struggling to breed in the remaining slime.” (22 May 09 - another 3 hours later)

 

The Entomologist

 In many ways, this is the most powerful story in the book so far, absorbing literary strength in an active symbiosis with each one of the previous stories – in fact gradually taking on its own structure quite beyond language and “the inadequacy of words”.

Indeed, anything I say in words about the story or further quote from it will be a spoiler. It is a true classic.  The story is full of things I could quote in perfect tune with the thematic impression I’ve given about the book so far but I sense it is far more powerful for me to make that simple point and then withdraw so as to allow other readers to capture it and erect its chitinous display more effectively.  Still, there are two more stories to read and review...

[This review is nothing if not pretentious.  On this personal note, too, I would like to draw a comparison between  ‘The Entomolgist’ and my ‘Wild Honey’ in the ‘Weirdmonger’ book, although my story, when push comes to shove, is essentially different, if not gauche, as well as patently inferior.  But, thereupon, I reject any charge of false modesty as well as pretentiousness!] (23 May 09)

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The Attendant

This book is clever at stories with loose or oblique endings – yet such endings that swell with an enormous meaning or many such meanings garnered from the rest of the story. Here we have a museum quite in keeping with the themes of the whole book adumbrated above – and an extremely gauche relationship between two human beings (both gauche but one more a stranger to us than the other), a relationship that may either be objectively labelled abuse or the beginnings of future love. A friendly wink or the deadly flash of a tongue. Plus more cruelty between children and the Earth’s Natural History that is a palimpsest.  A seedy flat and cold baked beans. This story made me want to cry.

 “He had to write ten pages of lines: ‘I must not play with the science exhibits’. He eventually handed in five pages with a note from his mother: ‘Gordon has very small writing as you can see. I think five pages of lines quite sufficient.’” (23 May 09 - 2 hours later)

 

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Paper Boats

“Looking from the window high in the tower of Brno Cathedral down onto the roofs of the old town, Mr Pinch was assailed by sudden vertigo, by the frightening sense of all the fragments of lives being played out below as much as by the minuteness of the bobbing black heads he saw progressing along the narrow lanes.”

I can easily empathise with the characters after having been on many coach tours in Europe with Wallace Arnold in recent years.  The passenger politics, the courier’s angst at a passenger being ill.  This story is a very telling coda to the whole book whereby the stoicism of growing old is pointillistically painted with enormous poignancy.  Each person with a lifetime of secret sorrows and lost loves.  Mr Pinch – marine-biologist manqué – falls sick and wets himself, with two other passengers (a married couple) then caring for him. Later, a past echo of the dive-or-fall from a height in the story entitled ‘Visits to the Flea Circus’ with regard to this couple’s son of whom they had previously spoken as if he were still alive.

This whole book has more than lived up to my 2005 memory of it.  That is not said lightly.  It is a major book of some rarity. I report without comment that one image originally stuck with me more than any other image in that first reading, one I’ve been expecting during this second reading but was unsure where it would turn up and it was from this last story entitled ‘Paper Boats’:

“There was a silence that he did not like. A silence that crept into the room like an insidious mist. The door had been left open, and as he waited he was sure that a shadow crept past the door – a shadow that knew he was there.” (23 May 09 - another 3 hours later)  

 

 

END OF MY REVIEW ON ‘VISITS TO THE FLEA CIRCUS’ by Nick Jackson (Elastic Press 2005)

 

  

 

 

“Looking up into the sky blue dome was like gazing up into heaven. It was possible to imagine the bank managers peering down from their offices like minor saints.”

from ‘The Secret Life of the Panda’ by Nick Jackson (published in "Zencore! – Scriptus Innominatus": 2007)


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Saturday, 16 May 2009
Real-Time Reviews as invented by DF Lewis

There m ay be unavoidable spoilers in all my reviews (although I do try to avoid them). 

An author's blog HERE. "Had an interesting experience this week of watching an “as live” review of The Ephemera taking shape as it was being read."

 

Another author's blog here about the DFL review of his book: HERE. "So here’s a sincere thanks to Des for his perceptive and insightful reading of my work."

 

A review of DFL's review of Ligotti's book below: HERE. "If you're looking for a brief romp through weird literature and the banker Meltdown, or have wondered what one weirdmonger on the fringe thinks of another wordsmith of the high weird, then you have found your destination."

 

HERE: "Des you make me want to buy books. My dream is to have you one day do one of these enlightening reviews about a collection of my stories. Brilliant stuff!"

 

Paul Meloy: HERE: "Des, this has been an absolute pleasure! Delightful, unique, touching...an honour. I predict these stream-of-consciousness reviews will become the essential thing to have and be in great demand! Thanks for taking the time to do this, Des!"

 

EDIT (22 APR 09): These reviews have developed into what I now call Real-Time Reviews of Books. The more recently dated ones below show this development more markedly.

 

 

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May 2007: DFL's review ('On The Hoof') of Thomas Ligotti's 'Conspiracy Against The Human Race': HERE

with TL's reply.

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Nov 08 - Jan 09:

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/glyphotech_by_mark_samuels.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/beneath_the_surface_by_simon_strantzas.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/omens_by_richard_gavin.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/divinations_of_the_deep_by_matt_cardin.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/rain_dogs_by_gary_mcmahon.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/teatro_grottesco_by_thomas_ligotti.htm

 

http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/how_to_make_monsters_by_gary_mcmahon.htm

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(3 Feb 09): http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/tamar_yellin.htm - Tales of The Ten Lost Tribes

 

 

(17 Feb 09): http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/the_reach_of_children__by_tim_lebbon.htm

 

(21 Feb 09): http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/the_impelled__other_headtrips_by_gary_fry.htm 

(7 Mar 09): World Wide Web And Other Lovecraftian Upgrades - by Gary Fry

(11 Mar 09): Beneath The Ground - edited by Joel Lane

(15 Mar 09): UNBECOMING And Other Tales Of Horror - by Mike O'Driscoll

(20 Mar 09): The Ephemera - by Neil Williamson

(25 Mar 09): Somnambulists - by Allen Ashley

(29 Mar 09): The Villa Désirée and Other Uncanny Stories - by May Sinclair

(11 Apr 09): Sanity and Other Delusions - by Gary Fry

(12 Apr 09): http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/sleepwalkers__marion_arnott.htm

(15 Apr 09): ISLINGTON CROCODILES by Paul Meloy

(20 Apr 09): http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/mindful_of_phantoms.htm by Gary Fry.

(6 May 09): The English Soil Society - by Tim Nickels 

(6 May 09): The Cusp of Something - by Jai Clare

 

 

 

 

Still in reading/reviewing:

"Real-Time Review of 'Weirdmonger' by DF Lewis" by DF Lewis 

Visits To The Flea Circus - by Nick Jackson

 

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PS:

Review of a long on-line novel:

http://weirdmonger.blogspot.com/2008/06/odalisque.html - a novel by PF Jeffery 

 

 

Mark Samuels' WHITE HANDS: http://nightshadebooks.com/discus/messages/8/752.html?1227381699 (June 2003)

 

Real-time notes on Robert Aickman: http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/robert_aickman.htm

 

 

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Monday, 16 March 2009
Holding

 

 

My Readings aloud: http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/df_lewis_reading_aloud.htm

 

 

My reviews: http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/recent_reviews_of_books_by_dfl.htm

 

 

Cone Zero: http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/cone_zero_under_way.htm

 


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Wednesday, 4 February 2009
Silver Service

SILVER SERVICE  

Published 'Purple Patch' 1998

 

The cutlery drawer was silent, not even the tiniest clink or clunk or even inadvertent settling of the empty volumes between the spokes and blades and tortoiseshell handles. Why there was one large carver residing amongst the daintier brand of English Afternoon Tea utensils was a question one might have asked, given the sight of its saw-like edge and gouge-tip of sparkling intensity.  A certain sugar spoon with sprinkle-holes was a particularly fearful sort of implement, sweet by name, sweet by nature.  She—and, of course, she was a she—simpered at the sight of such a manly shaft as the carver’s, yet, equally, she was scared stiff of its mighty glint (even within the comparative gloom of the drawer).  Little could she do about it, though, until the human wielder shuffled them again, following a good old grease-up and subsequent sudsing by the kitchenmaid ... not that the sugar spoon was usually submitted to the fouler sort of substances that maybe the carver had to endure.   That would have been the end of the story if the whole drawerful had not been sold as a joblot to a local transport café, close on the heels of the owner’s sudden death at the hand of a particularly aggrieved servant.  Sad to say, suds away, she to it, silver holes-a-plenty, as far as the sugar spoon was concerned, bearing in mind its next to no use to nobody in the real world.


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Monday, 12 January 2009
Sun, Sea & Sorrow

Sun, Sea & Sorrow

 

Arthur felt inhibited. He decided to take a holiday by the seaside where, he was told, Bridget, his sister, had once lost all her sexual inhibitions …


Arthur frowned. That child was now his. His cold-hearted sister had abandoned the baby. And Arthur was too kind to refuse responsibility to become Bridget’s lifebuoy for her drowning waifs and strays...

The child knew that Arthur wasn’t his real Dad … being Arthur's nephew conceived one unseasonably snow-driven night on a closed pier – to the sound of gurgling.

Waves.

Arthur found it difficult to shed his own sexual inhibitions … with a brat in tow. Most of the women wanted clean-cut flings without such appurtenances as a sister’s off-load.

Arthur used a bench to sit on the promenade – between two showers – watching the sun set over the sea. Or was it rising? He had lost all sense of timing. Bridget’s boy sat beside him pretending to cast imaginary fishing-lines towards the distant horizon.

“Trying to catch the sun, son?” Arthur asked.

The boy nodded. He had Bridget’s nose.

Unknown to both – an electric ice-cream van had drawn up beside the kerb. Raspberry rippling ... and Magnums making melted chocolate sculptures between the two cones of the gurgling lady with the wafers.

Eventually … “Want an ice or a lolly?” she called to the large silhouette that was Arthur and to the small silhouette that was his sister’s child - from both of which silhouettes upon the promenade bench the sinking sun retreated with timely abandon.

One silhouette turned towards the voice – whilst the other silhouette merged into the darkness that gradually subsumed them together, sucking both like scooped cocoa ice-cream towards its single heart. Towards the sucking, dragging, flesh-grinding shingle...

“I’ll have a Melon Mivvi,” said the voice that emerged as a cross between a deep filling and a frozen sculpture … as if two throats (one dark choc ice, one lemon sorbet) spoke with a single tongue-like ladle.

The ice-cream lady only had sorrow to keep her company; and, with no customers, she took a Lyon’s Maid from the deepest fridge of all … from the frozen core that knew no love …


Waves.

 


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Thursday, 11 December 2008
Oblongs of Oblation

OBLONGS OF OBLATION   by DF Lewis

 

published 'Psychotrope'  1997

 

 

I do not want to alarm you, but something dreadful has happened.  Our hair restorative company in which we invested lock stock and barrel - well, it went belly-up yesterday. 

 

            I didn't want to have to say this, but I told you so, dear Uncle Mark.  I bloody well did.

 

            Too many eggs in one dilapidated wicker-basket, if you ask me, which nobody did, and we would not be in this classic case of up shit creek, if you'd listened to me a teeny weeny bit more.  But I'm not one for crocodile tears over an oil-tanker load of ground nut oil  spilling into the sea, as you very well know.  The reason I'm alerting you of all people to the situation is not so much in a hope of salvaging something from the wreck, but rather to spike Uncle Burl's guns.  He'll be round your flat quick as a flash in a chip pan (he may already have landed by the time you receive this missive) asking you, as senior member of the family, to sign over all manner of dotted lines. 

 

            The simple dictum in life, as we've all learnt good and proper, is "do not".  Where would we be, if our family had simply "done" things through the centuries?  They'd've lost all the goddam loot which they’d previously earned, earned by means of the beauty of their essential do-notness.  After all, ne fais pas is writ on our coat of arms, plain as a pikestaff. 

 

            And look what "doing" has done for us, Uncle Mark, now we've tried it this once.  Round pooh-pooh corner without a nose-clip. 

 

            Get in touch soon.  But do not use the phone, for obvious reasons.     

 

                    Your loving niece, Donna.

 

PS: (later) The situation is worse than ever.  Apparently, Uncle Burl is not on his way to you.  He's here.  He caught me at the door just as I was going out to post this letter.  He'd been trying to get in for ages, he said. He took one look at the letter in my hand and guessed it would be addressed to you, apprising you of the situation vis a vis the hair-oil company.  So do not believe anything you read in it.  It will no doubt be tampered with in some surreptitious fashion.  Perhaps, the phone would have been better, after all, bug or no bug.  My only hope is that you can read between the lines.  Or, on second thoughts, probably better not to do so.  I leave it to your discretion.

 

 

 

Dear Donna,

 

Let me touch your brow.  Mmmm, a few degrees over, if I'm not too mistaken.  Get in touch, you say.  Seriously, though, sweetheart, I wish I was near enough for touching.  I miss you.  (Anyone reading this letter would probably believe the worst of our relationship for, after all, middle-aged uncles and teenage nieces don't usually have such hankerings for each other). 

 

            Still, whatever you might think, letters are safer than phones - and more lasting, of course.  Such written material may indeed lend itself to future scrutiny and can I even trust you, my darling?  How do I know that, one day, you won't use these tear-stained oblongs of oblation as ammunition in some scheme of blackmailery?  The only way I can know does stem from my faith in your untarnishable sweetness and light - the sheer certainty of your intrinsic love for me, a love that any sea-changes to which souls are prone could never quench. 

 

            Indeed, I know you so well, I may as well live inside you, I guess.           

 

            Well, despite its strangeness, your letter rang loud and clear.  Brother Burl is trying to step on my corns.  I have reason to believe that it was none other than him who pulled the plug on the investment, by calling our bluff on the Futures and Commodities.  Yet how he actually knew that the consignment of growth-hormone was a fiction of the market place is beyond me.  He must have guessed we don't get involved in real goods.  Only unfulifillable promises.            A promise is usually good enough from one promisee to the next - until loose cannons like Burl shoots off through his trousers.  I could kill him, the damned bloodsucker that he is.  But I do not do such things, of course.  All it needs, Donna, is for you to let him have his way with you.  What he catches off you will do the rest of it.  But, my acushla, just imagine it's me on top of you not him - a promise is as good as a lick, after all.  Love, Uncle Mark.

 

 

 

 

 

Dear Uncle Mark,

 

Thanks for your letter.  It did me a power of good.  I'll soon launch myself from my bout of malade imaginaire.  I can then actually get to the post-box with my letters.  My brow is much cooler.  So cool, I wonder if it isn't stone cold.  I don't touch it except with the head itself.  Somebody was trying to break down the front door, just now.  I changed the locks weeks ago.  You can never be too safe, can you?  You know, I have a feeling that people like us do not die.  The ultimate "do not".

 

            But, if I did die, it'd kill the shame, no doubt, and quench this dreadful dreadful thirst I have for sucking up my own wicker-veined breasts in two huge oily gulps - those once young breasts of mine I still feel the marks of your fingers on.  

 

            I do love you, Uncle Mark - but only if I do not love you.  The future has the promise of my soul.  And the present moment can haunt me if only it does not haunt me at all. 

 

                   Fondly,  Donna. 

 

PS: These letters seem to write themselves, these days, do they not? 

 

 

 

Dear Donna,

 

Burl eventually came round.  He has skin trouble and lots more going on underneath that even a surgeon couldn’t find.  But, at least, you cured his baldness.  A miracle after all these centuries of different skulls and crossbones.  It’s starting on my own bony pate, now, even as I write.  Do not reply to this letter.  I beg you to promise not to write.  Then, I can sign off - at last.  Simply awaiting God’s final promise even for souls as stuck between youth and old age as mine, but I dare not hope, dare not even pray, dare not...

 

 

 

 

 

Death is a Commodity.” Rachel Mildeyes (from THE MARKETING OF HELL Vol 2. The Middle Ages)

 

 

 

 


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Wednesday, 5 November 2008
The Inside of the Inside

THE INSIDE OF THE INSIDE  

 

The argument was conducted under wraps, under roofs, under cover of town and country, time and place – mainly by email, but often by clandestine exchange of notes between members of the audience at the weekly ‘Friday Night Is Music Night’ recording for the BBC Light Programme. 

 

Indeed, the argument had been going on for many years, spanning all manner of communication systems, such as Morse Code, Semaphore, via the gossiping of folks on the blower or press-button-A/press-button-B kiosks (whilst letting drop important sounding words or noises between the gossip, all of which spelt out the intrinsic message), envelopes taken on horseback as well as by the more normal Royal Mail vans, telegrams, telex, smoke signals learned parrot fashion from the Sioux Indian, sign language, uncouth gestures in public gatherings such as football matches or pop music gigs, tell-tale coughs and splutters picked up by the Radio Three microphones between movements at classical music concerts, children surreptitiously passing ink-blotted notes between desks whilst the teacher turned a blind eye to their mischievous faces fully giving the game away, tin canisters zipping along high wires in department stores between counters and cash desks bearing handwritten messages as well as invoices and coins, sweethearts exchanging billets doux with strange words out of context amid their amorous ravings … and, then, of course, messages could be passed without even the people involved knowing they were messages: like the hidden patterns in the movement of crowds, windows opening, windows shutting, chimneys giving off smoke from nursery fires where the children watched armies of red sparks marching up the sooty backdrop of their world, traffic stalling, traffic backfiring, traffic policemen waving arms to direct the snarling vehicles of the town as they crisscrossed the gridworks of routes in telling, remorselessly random patterns of journey…

 

No end to the various means of conducting the argument, therefore.  But what was the argument – constituted of all these messages through time and place – and who was arguing with whom?  The crowd was slowly, methodically, patiently queuing up for the BBC’s ‘Friday Night Is Music Night’ in the Golder’s Green Empire.  I forget if the theatre was called the Empire, because time often interposes obstacles to memory now and again, because a message delivered too easily is often not a message at all.  Each message was equivalent to a word in a sentence, though these messages often contained more or less than simply a word.  Often just a letter.  Sometimes a string of meanings that, together, had very little meaning … unless joined luckily with another message that gave it a context of new and crystal clear meaning.  Two messages together made sense, then, whilst each on its own was complete nonsense.

 

The queue of people snaked round the streets of North London as a gold and purple sunset crusted the rooftops and chimneys and TV aerials with a ghostliness that few of the people in the queue would ever forget, even though they did not even try to remember it, because by being ordinary people, they did not have the worry of noticing the beauty around them.  They rarely looked up from their feet. 

 

So the question remained.  What was the argument?  Who were the insiders that realised that it was being argued out at all amid the apparently haphazard footprints of the queue as they slowly vanished inside the theatre via the rusty turnstile of the inscrutable ticket-keeper?  And were there insiders within the insiders?  And inside of the inside: those who knew that time and place were huge signifiers at the core of the argument being conducted by the message and the messenger?

 

I was in that queue.  I knew I had to be there so that I could seek out the inside of its winding crocodile of pink and black humanity.  A line of people could have a centre of gravity just as much as a mass or crowd of people gathering into the shape of an audience that was once a queue.  They do say proverbially an audience was always once a queue. I stared at my neighbour behind me in the queue. A father with his daughter?  I then turned to watch my other neighbour in front.  This was a professional queue maker by the look of him.  A one-man band of facilities: chemical toilet, blanket tent, thermos and comestibles.  He smiled.  But I knew he was not on the true inside of the queue, not the pukka core of the queue.  The way he looked at me – quizzically – made me wonder if he thought *I* was the ultimate queue maker. The insider that all bogus insiders yearned  to become.

 

Meanwhile, the queue continued its lethargic course, because nobody was heated enough to fasten the pace of its argument.  Nobody was there, I felt, to hear the concert of Light Music waiting to tinkle out its notes inside.  They were simply there to form the queue.  Their eventual emergence as a full-blooded audience was merely secondary.

 

I then abruptly noticed a sad-faced woman on the other side of the one-man band.  Someone who stared past this one-man band – in fact she ignored the strident busker that the one-man band had suddenly become so as to entertain the queue with his music, entertaining the queue from *within* the queue.  She not only stared past the one-man band’s flashing tambourine, but also past my own unfamiliar face … towards the man with the little girl.  All three, the man with the little girl, the little girl herself and this woman had tears sparkling in their eyes, connecting them by a message far more meaningful than any language of words that arguers could possibly use to outflank each side of their argument. 

 

We all vanished into the Empire … but not before noticing, in my case, that a few puffs of smoke from a nearby chimney veiled the darkening sunset.  A few birds sat on a washing line like crotchets.  It was Friday night.

 

 

 

 

 


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The Egg-Tamer of Jullipbar

THE EGG-TAMER OF JULLIPBAR 

 

Jullipbar wasn’t an alien planet as such, because it was where we lived.  We called it home.  Everywhere else was alien to us.  All the sparkling specks or unidinentified flying pods were potentially where you or your kind lived – or possibly lived, because you couldn’t live everywhere.

Jullipbar could almost be called a terrain of unrelieved sameness, interspersed with lakes and sea.  An archipelago with blueness silting into every corner.  A beautiful feathery light shafting at all angles from a single source above. An outdoor cathedral of some quite stunning picture postcard over-the-top lack of distinction. Except, of course, when the weather was bad.  But we tend to forget about those things.  We enjoy sameness.  And, thankfully, our memories are short.  We live for the moment.

            Today I’m an egg-tamer.  Just to fill in a brief background, I am of an untidy gender.  I go without being seen.  I come with as little fuss as possible.  I enjoy picking fights with challenges, because that gives contours to the day.  You, being a visitor, are one such challenge: a visitor who, although merely arrived in spirit instead of in a bodily state, surely represents a circumstance which, of course, stems from your chicken-livered soul being reluctant to embark upon the risk of vehicular travel, bearing in mind the troubled times that beset us all, alien or otherwise.

            My story, sadly, is briefer even than that background.  Well, we have no time for stories in Jullipbar.  Real life takes us so much time, all of it in fact.  We don’t really know what stories are, their concept or their wherewithal: we fail to find fiction anywhere; or drama; or spectacle; or even sound adventures masquerading as music.  So let’s finish there.  Hope you enjoyed your trip.  You can go back now along the psychic funnel you smoked out with your mind power; back home to that alien home that you call normality.

            Hope you enjoyed a glimpse of my current occupation.  Egg-taming.  Here is a chicken with all its breasty members complete, tousled feathers ripe for the plucking, in a state that you would call dead; dead still; blind poultry; eyelids scaled over with yellow scum; wrinkled skin slowly … ever so slowly … hardening, crystallisng as you watch … even more slowly curving out into surfaces its previous nodular form could not possibly have predisposed; limbs cracking back into the smooth mounds of grit; the wishbone sinking into a mucus centre where the yellow scum has setled; and at this stage the new form begins to move, ever so slightly at first, each twitch of the crisp sheen becoming more and more violent…

            And, yes, I take my top whip and lay into its blantantly aggressive manoeuvres towards me … as if it seeks to smash me in the eye; my eye being the nearest state to its now own chickenless state…  making me an egg-tamer … an egg-tamer of Jullipbar.

            But you’d gone before you saw all this, if you were ever here at all.  Even mind travel can be dangerous.  Hope you made it back, without too much synaptic wastage.  Home sweet home for at least someone. The blue archipelago of Jullipbar as ever threatened with alien pods, worse than any weather.  Hatching plots forever. Breakfast seems too far away to matter…


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The War Years

THE WAR YEARS  

Prologue.

The War Years were weeks on end of challenge and response.  Civilisation ever progresses through such series of challenges and responses.  Many feel they want to forget those weeks on end, leading to months slipping into months, years fighting back the years … until we or they or you could gather in the harvest of the present – as days topple into the future, we hope, interminably.  Death is the only battle the years cannot join.  But between who and who?

 

**********************

 

 

“Hey!” shouts Tom, in one such challenge to the day.

 

The day did not respond.  The day was fighting back the tears.

 

Silence stared cruelly from the mirror straight into his cold eyes.  Tom was 80 odd.  An even number, a round number.  Years that had come full circle and met head on.  He suddenly saw the warmth of the child in the eyes looking back at him.  Rita had left him at the age of 70, his age of 70.  Her round of years had misjudged the pitch and she had never reached last base, after swinging the bat at a seemingly empty ball.  The true ball had indeed made a ricochet with a tree and ended up in the nettles, full solid foul.  The flowers the nettles hid were its nest for a million nights to come, or were they the ghosts of flowers re-seeding the past with mulch?  Meantime the future grew drier and drier.  Arid shades that shifted above the grave that Tom never visited.

 

“What’s up?” Tom rejoined the battle with silence.  He recalled the war years, the blitz bombers and the wayward doodlebugs.  He’d been a child then, one eager to tap the novelty of Air Raids and Rations.  His own grandfather was the mirror image of Tom today.  Tom today.  That was a name to conjure with.  Tom Then was just a thumbprint on a window pane soon to be shattered by shrapnel, as Tom and his cousins used the Andersen Shelter as a focal point in their games of hide and seek.  Tom Will Be melted in the heat of sunspots that rained down instead of bombs.  The years were struggling against the global warming of newer, brasher years; scorched acres of time that relished the sandstorms which engendered them.  Those pepperings of stingbombs from air’s last base.

 

Meantime, Tom listened out for Rita’s response. Greenless mean time.

 

Tom’s pasty yellow face was plastered to the glass like a poster advertising illness as a way of avoiding conscription.  He pointed his finger.  Tom Today was again Tom Then.  The future needs you. 

 

One cousin they had never found.  Counted to one million, and then the others scattered off to search in tree and town and country and sea.  Perhaps the cousin had never existed in the first place.  A shade herself scuttling to hide in whatever shelter could be provided against time’s stuttering bombardment.  Counted to one million years. “I’m coming, I’m coming, ready or not…”

 

Rita hid, she thought, in the undergrowth.  But it was only thought, after all.  She was merely a stitched globe with porous stuffing.  The game was over.  No mirrors are spherical on the outside.  But if a mirror is spherical on the inside, the reflected image it throws can ricochet for a tandem of eternities.

 

“Let me catch you up!” screamed Tom Today.

 

But he never could.  Tom Then ever heading towards last base, blindfold’s last run.  Pin the tail on the Donkey’s Years…

 

*****************************

 

Epilogue.

Sadly there is none.

 


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Prematurity

PREMATURITY 

 

There’s more to life than a Stoker.  Stiff keys, for example.

 

Charles – a sad case of someone who believed the past actually existed as portrayed by History – saw fit to employ several time-serving servants: some of whom were actually men and women crawling along Charles’ back passages; stoking the coal fires from the rear of such seats of combustible power. 

 

Clank!  As a chimney-wall slid aside and a tentative poker prodded forth to stick air pockets into the back-doubles of black cobbled mounds for fire to breathe easily … and crisp and crackle in the heart-warming warmth of Charles’ living spaces. Clank was more a creak or croak of rust-corroded metal than clank – as light was pushed into slots of age-old, mould-kissed sidearms of the house’s dilapidations.

 

“Hey, I can’t open the back entrance,” suddenly announced – in entrancing vowels of speakeasy back-scratching – a servant of some standing called Clive.  Clive was a servant who was not expected to stoke or poke, but actually oil the tumblers of life’s strange reality.  He was respected as a house-mover.  The clock-maker that started time ticking.  The First Mover, in fact.  Clive was nothing, though, without Charles to serve.  Charles was Clive’s Creation.  Every Creator needed a Creation to boast of.

 

“Have you tried every bunch?” asked another servant of more downward tendencies.  A bog-borer, of hirsute face and threadable torso.  Charles, however – with fellow servants at every quarter – needed not even to speak in answer.  Charles employed servants to talk among themselves, debating unissued orders and extrapolated duties.

 

A bunch of keys was a bunch of keys.  They were identical.  The downward servant – of nameless mien – knew this fact at the deepest unstokeable parts of his soul.  If there were more than one bunch, any loss would be worse than misunderstanding.  And the worst fate of any community – be it the servile or masterful area of jurisdiction – was misunderstanding.  A loss for words is like not being able to unlock truth itself.  Negatives cancelled each other out rather than preen and roost upon false beams of logic.

 

Clive shrugged, so that Charles did not need to.

 

Even verbs were servants’ business.  Stoking the story till it goes out – prematurely?  The key to its mystery missing.


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